angie, i know it's hard...believe me, i'm in the midst of a broken heart myself. the opposite actually...my ex is the born again christian. i know you want so badly to be with chris, i know the pain and the anxiousness...the urgent want and need to fix it...to make it the way it was. i know all of that. i did it too. i still struggle.

please keep your faith that if the relationship between chris and you is meant to be, by the will of God, then it will be. maybe God is using this break to make you both stronger in Him which will in turn make you stronger and better for each other, and then how great of a relationship would that be!! it'd be the complete package. a relationship where both of you are growing together in love with God as the center of BOTH of your lives.

sometimes, we get so distracted in all the material things and other people and we forget how we got them...we move so fast everyday and we don't stop to acknowledge God. and sometimes...i think God has to hit us with that rock, so to speak, in order to make us stop and look around to see how quickly it can be gone. that's what i believe happened in my situation i mean it. my ex was on top of the world, owned 2 businesses, 4 cars, everyone loves him, excellent guy, just incredible, my best friend and the love of my life, the man who told me everyday that he loved me so completely he couldn't describe it. then in an instant he found out that his business partners were dropping out, he started to lose money, and he ended up having to sell it...he ended up in debt, sold a couple of his vehicles, became extremely depressed, couldn't/wouldn't pay his bills, and quit talking to me...he just shut down, started pushing me away...talked about killing himself. i was terrified for him. i wanted so badly to fix it. i wanted so badly to stick by him and to go through all of this with him. i was ready. i prayed so hard all the time, literally. but i couldn't get thru to him. i believe that God knew my ex had to lose everything good in his life in order to realize he needed God in his life first and foremost and God knew i couldn't help him. it was something he would have to do on his own. maybe that's the case for you and chris.

i've gotten so much support and guidance from the beautiful people on this site, and they overwhelmingly agree that we should all spend time with God. angie, God knows your heart, and He knows Chris's heart. and when He sees that you are ready, if it is in the plan he has for you, it WILL happen. it WILL. you have to truly believe that God will do what's best. people will tell you to "just forget it...it won't happen" and they may tell you to give up, and then there are those who will tell you everything you want to hear...but just know that no matter what anyone else tells you, you continue to have faith that God's WILL be done. the bible says to have faith not in man but in GOD. Jesus said himself, we can move mountains if we have the faith that they will move. this situation is YOUR mountain. you will conquer it.

but for right now, as hard as it is (i know,because after almost 3 months, i'm still struggling with this)you have to hand it over to God. i can tell you from personal experience, the more you try and fix things with this relationship and the more you worry, the more you're standing in the way of God working to fix the situation and the LONGER it's going to take for His plan for you to be revealed. He can't make it better if you don't let Him do what He needs to with BOTH you and chris.

i don't know if you're much of a reader, but reading has really helped me to pass the time while i'm waiting for God to fix everything for me. i recommend a book called, "captivating", by john and stasi eldredge. it's a book about why women are the way we are and how much God loves us and how we are the piece de resistance to creation itself. it was recommended to me by my ex actually. his sister read it when she went through a bad breakup with her boyfriend...now husband. yep, they got back together, but she had to let go and see the situation from another view. an outside view. you have to step out of it, and let God take it. it's comforting to know that God WANTS to fix things for us. He WANTS us to be happy and to know love. most importantly, He wants us to love him and to trust Him sincerely.

the book i'm reading right now is actually written by john eldredge. it's the male version of captivating. it's called, "wild at heart". it's really made me understand the struggles my ex may be going through with knowing who He really is as a man and why God put him here.

angie, i will pray for you. i know your suffering...please don't give up.

God almighty, our only Father, thank you for angie's return to you. thank you for all you give that we may not truly appreciate when it happens. we don't know your reasons, but we know you love angie with a love beyond any one word can describe. we know you want her to have peace of heart and peace of mind and first and foremost, love and trust in you dear God. Lord, fill angie with the holy spirit, guide her, speak to her, give her strength to stand this trial. please touch the heart of chris. wrap them both in your loving arms. open their hearts to you and to each other. i pray all of this in your precious name dear God. Amen.

Lord, we ask that this couple come together in your will, knowing through your word how you want this realtionship handled and ask your blessings in it. In Jesus name.