I pray that me and my ex boyfriend will be back together. It's been over 2 months since the breakup date (April 6th 2010) and my feelings for him still and will never go away. God put us together for a reason. And I pray and know that God can and will get back together. I had dreams that we got married and had a family together and stayed together forever more. Me and him (ex) even talked about marriage and our future while we were together. I want that future. Those dreams to become reality. I don't want it any other way. I thank God for the blessings I already have. Just this one extra blessing I'm asking for, and Glory shall fill my life. For my relationship with my ex shall and will and already has happened in the Name of Jesus. Amen.
Update added Tue Jun 29 21:00:12 +0000 2010
Please continue to pray for this. I miss him and love him so much. I pray God will bring him back when the time is right, even though I wish the time is now. Please God, soften his heart and please reunite us. Every night and day, I pray hard and cry with tears overflowing and soaking my pillow. Give me the strength to hold on to my ex and never let go, for I want him back in my life. Forgive me if this prayer is selfish, but it's one of the only prayers I'm praying for right now and I will and am still praying for this to happen until he comes back or until the day I die (days are never promising in life when it comes to death) and I will pray until he comes back to me, no matter how long it takes. I want him back. I love him. I want to be his wife. I want him to be my husband. I love him, Lord. Please reunite us when we meet eye-to-eye again. Give me the strength to hold on and never let go of this prayer. Thank you.
Update added Sat Jul 03 20:24:16 +0000 2010
I have received a sign from God the other day. I prayed for communication from my exboyfriend at 12:30 am the following night. Soon enough as I wake up and I turned my cell on before I left for school, I received a text FROM MY EX at 1:10 am, 40 minutes after I prayed! My ex usually never texts me first just to say "hi". I told my dad about it and he told me "That means you're still on his mind, he misses you. Keep having faith and now you know your prayer is about to be answered." And my sister told me that God will answer because it happened to her recently (she got back with HER first recently) and the text is a sign from God, whether it's just a "Hi" or anything, I'm still on his mind. I miss him so much. And now I know he misses me too. And I'm on his mind. I pray for God to continue to give me these signs and the strength to hold on to my ex and never let him go.
I ask for everyone to pray for the restoration of me and my ex. Let him be an ex no more. To have God open my ex's eyes and realize that a relationship with me can and will be the happiest thing in both of our lives. I want us to be together forever more; me and him talked about marriage and our future once he gets of the Marine Corps and I want those dreams to come true. I have no one else to turn to but God and I cannot do this by myself. Even though this was my first relationship, I want this to be my first and last. People say your first love will NEVER be your last, but I know there are many people who have the first loves be their only loves. This is a realization that makes my faith go upward. I pray for the restoration and the forever-bond that me and my ex will have in the future.
Update added Tue Jul 13 15:35:04 +0000 2010
I have received more signs of this prayer being answered (of me getting back together with him as a couple again) this week (even one from a dream from my own father!) so please continue your prayers, as my faith as gotten even stronger than ever, knowing that this prayer will be answered.
Update added Fri Jul 16 20:09:37 +0000 2010
Me and my ex are now starting to talk more now. It's a start, but now I had the courage to tell him how I feel. Even though he doesn't want the chance with me right now, the chance of me being with him again as his girlfriend is still there. God will bless us to be together again and He's already got us to making that first step. God is so good and please continue your prayers!
Update added Sun Jul 18 19:00:04 +0000 2010
Today I felt Satan trying to attack me into negative thinking that nothing will work out between me and my ex. Last night, I asked God for Him to give my exboyfriend visions and dreams about me and him together again, just like I have received of him and me being together again. I believed He did give him those visions and I believe he received them too. But today I received 2 text messages from my ex that said "It's time to chat. You won't like it..." I did not and will not reply to the texts. However, I got really nervous. . . that I believe the Devil has hardened his heart even more badly. I started thinking that he will say he never wants the second chance with me... and with my nervousness and negative thinking, while I was at work today, I got a pit in my stomach (empty feeling), and a bad sharp pain on my left side. It was bad. My mom works in the same job as I do and I asked her to ask the GM (general manager) for me to go home. The pain was pretty bad and I know that I can lose money (and maybe my job) because I had already taken off the 4th of July weekend off and now I took off early. But money is not an issue for me (even though finances are tight and weak right now). So fast forward, I'm home and I prayed for my left side to heal. I also prayed really hard for the Devil's attacks on my relationship restoration to end. I couldn't take it anymore. I had received visions, dreams (myself, mom and even my dad) about me and my ex being together again. I hold on to those dreams really tight. So tight I don't ever want to let go until they come true. I plead to God "What am I going to do?! I had those dreams, hope, and faith about him and me for a reason! I don't want to let go of this man! And I know this might sound selfish, but I don't want him with another girl either! I already made up my mind of never loving another man like I love my ex. No, I'm not going to stop praying for this for as long as I breathe, and when the going gets tougher. But when the going gets tough, the tough get tougher and I am the tough that gets together, as I will NOT REST until the desires of my heart comes true!"
I SPEAK RESTORATION AND HEALING IN THE NAME OF JESUS! I ASK IN THE NAME OF JESUS TO HEAL MY LEFT SIDE COMPLETELY FROM THIS PAIN AND THE NERVOUSNESS IN MY HEART AND STOMACH (currently, my side is now better than it was; it still hurts though right now). THE DEVIL IS TRYING TO KILL MY DESIRES AND HOPE. GOD, YOU KNOW I LOVE THIS MAN AND I WANT A BEAUTIFUL FUTURE WITH HIM. I LOVE HIM WITH ALL OF MY HEART AND WISH TO MARRY HIM AND BE THE FUTURE MOTHER OF HIS CHILDREN. SATAN IS TRYING TO DESTROY THE ONE DESIRE I HAVE IN MY HEART. I ALSO ASK IN THE NAME OF JESUS FOR THE RESTORATION AND HEALING OF THE RELATIONSHIP OF MY AND MY EXBOYFRIEND. THAT THIS IS THE ONE DESIRE I HAVE IN MY HEART. SATAN, YOU HAVE NO POWER TO DESTROY MY HOPES AND DREAMS. YOU ARE TRYING TO ATTACK MY BODY AND YOU ARE TRYING TO ATTACK MY RELATIONSHIP RESTORATION. GOD, SATAN IS TRYING TO HARDEN HIS HEART SO BADLY THAT HE THINKS NOT EVEN YOU CAN SOFTEN IT, BUT ALL THINGS CAN AND WILL HAPPEN THROUGH YOU, GOD! I AM TIRED OF SATAN'S LIES, I'M TIRED OF SATAN DESTROYING MY FAITH IN YOU, O GOD. IT SHALL BE DONE, THE RELATIONSHIP SHALL AND WILL BE RESTORED IN THE NAME OF THE ALMIGHTY JESUS CHRIST. AMEN AND AMEN!
I hope you prayed in agreement of this prayer, as I am tired of Satan trying to kill my desires, my hopes, and my dreams of my future with me and my exboyfriend.
Update added Sat Jul 24 23:59:56 +0000 2010
Lord heavenly Father, please continue for me to fight on for my desires in my heart. For my exboyfriend's heart to be softened again. You, Lord, can soften the hardest diamond in the rough, and restore and renew people together when we least expect it. We don't have to know when, but we all know that You can do anything, for anything is possible through You. Please continue to give me the faith and the strength to carry on my dream and for me to not give up. Satan, you will NOT win over my dreams and desires. You tried to attack me, and it only made me stronger; for God had me realize that you, Satan, are trying to attack and demean me when it comes to this desire and prayer. God is indeed working on restoring my exboyfriend and I as I have envisioned it and through Faith, I shall prevail and our relationship between myself and my exboyfriend will be restored in Jesus name. Amen.
Update added Thu Aug 19 01:18:14 +0000 2010
I had a, well, tiny breakthrough in regards to the restoration of my relationship. On my way home from school, and I was waiting for the train, my (ex)boyfriend's mother saw me and me and her had a great conversation together. I have not seen her since my (ex)boyfriend and I broke up 4 months ago. I know there is a reason me and her met up at that time and at that place at the station, knowing we have not seen each other in so long. I still see her as my potential mother-in-law. We rode the same train home (I got off 2 stops before her though) talked about what was going on with her family and told me a lot of what his (my (ex)boyfriend) younger sisters were doing in regards to college and everything. She kept me up with the (HIS, the (ex)'s) family. And I still see the younger sisters as my in-laws too. There was a reason me and her met up at that place and time at the same time and talked about her family. I believe it was a small breakthrough to not give up on my (ex)boyfriend. Me and his mother talk like we are best friends. I believe God is still working on restoring us in some way, and the meeting with his mother wasn't mere coincidence, especially having not seeing her for months. That's my little breakthrough anyway.
Lord, I know You got us two to meet at that same place and time for a reason. I believe You are restoring our relationship (ex and I's) in a way. You know, Lord, I still love him and want a promising future with him as my future husband, as I still see him as that. I know You will make a way for us to be reconciled again. I may not know how or when, but I know You can do this.
"Delight yourself in the LORD and he will give you the desires of your heart." Psalm 37:4 (NIV)
"And I will do whatever you ask in my name, so that the Son may bring glory to the Father." John 14:13 (NIV)
These are just two of the many scriptures I follow by. Lord, You do not lie. And Lord, I know of your promises, as shown in these scriptures. I do believe that this was a small breakthrough as to seeing his ( (ex)boyfriend's) mother after a few months. This was not mere coincidence. It was yet another sign of what's to come as whereas the desires of my heart (the desire of having him as my lover and eventual future husband) lie. This is truly something that I never expected today. I thank You for giving me this little nudge to the side, giving me the "go" on following this prayer and believing in this prayer I've been praying for many months. I believe the outcome shall be restoration, and I feel in my heart it's going to come soon enough. With You, anything is definitely possible. Please make it so! In Jesus Name. Amen!
Update added Sun Aug 29 01:22:14 +0000 2010
So I talked to my exboyfriend earlier via Facebook chat... and we were talking about well... us. He told me he feels somewhat detached or have no loving emotions for certain people anymore... and it was hard for him to explain. And as we talked we talked about like what the status of our relationship stands at this moment. The conversation is a bit hard to explain on itself, but I also told him that in my words "Note I am not making you come back or asking you to come back right now, because I feel you just need your space, even though you say you don't ask for it." Then he told me this: "I just want you to stop feeling emotional feelings for me is all. At least date wise. The things that drove me away come with it." In my opinion, stop coming as too strong for him or pretty much stop asking for dates altogether for now. I don't ask for dates but that's how I'm feeling at this point. I pretty much told him about the balancing of one's emotions out of fear and the like, which occasionally occurs within most people, commonly speaking. After a few more words, he stated, "Ok. But they're [emotions] not there. Sure, you want them to be, but they're not. That's just how it works sometimes. Once you're in, you're in. Once you're out, you're out." And he was talking about the emotions, yes, but in my heart and God's grace, I have faith in my heart, he was not talking about me. Why? Because I know my God can work miracles... to restore what the locusts once ate. Before the conversation ended, he said, "To be honest I was hoping it would fade within the months, but it's still there so I'll think of something to help you." It makes me worried in a way. Very worried. But God does not put worry in me, does He? No. The devil, Satan, is trying to make me think for the worst. No I do not think "he's trying to make me stop loving him", says the devil. Or that "he's trying to push you away from him forever" says Satan. All he wants is for me to not come on too strong for him, at least date/relationship wise for the moment, and I have no choice but to respect that. BUT that doesn't mean I cannot stand on my prayers and faith for us to be restored! My God can work the impossible and in my heart, my sure-fire beating heart, down the road, things will change and WE WILL BE RESTORED emotionally, psychologically and mentally! I claim it in Jesus Name!
We (me and exboyfriend) might talk more later tonight but I really need prayer support. I have a long prayer to say so bear with me:
God I come to You, heart-bound yet imbalanced in my faith and hope. You saw the conversation that happened between me and my exboyfriend. I can see Satan trying to push us apart even further, especially when it comes to showing my Godly love towards my exboyfriend. I am still in love with him and still want both of us to reunite and have a promising future with each other. It seems things are going more backwards than forward, but You O God can make things forward once more. You can work miracles and Lord, THIS IS MY MIRACLE.
First, I want to pray for my exboyfriend... How lost, detached and confused right now he is feeling... I even feel fear in him, even though he denies it as such... He says he automatically detaches himself from things, but God one does not detach automatically, it is by choice. The devil makes you detach from people or to have no emotions or certain feelings from people out of the "devil's emotions": Fear, Grief, Emptiness, Anger, Sadness, Panic, Uncertainty, Guilt, Worry, Despair, Regret, Desperation, Remorse, and Loneliness. These things God does not put in us. He is uncertain of us right now. He could be uncertain of himself... He still wants me to love him, but not as strong. Yet my love for him shall continue to burn unconditionally, like Your Son, Jesus loves us just as unconditionally. For this is a Godly love. It's just, the devil does not want me to express that love to him, because my exboyfriend is still God's creation nonetheless. He was put here for a reason as all people who are living or have died in the past. Lord, I want You to come into his heart right now... show him the Love I have for him, as well as the Love YOU have for him as well... I feel He needs you so much... He does need a savior. And also I love him... and I still stick by him, as a lover and a friend. Even if we are not together at this moment, God you work miracles. You CAN restore us in a BIG WAY and not even my exboyfriend will expect it. Lord... I believe we WILL be together again. In my heart this is definitely out of the Godly love that YOU have taught me. As the eBook has stated that a good Godly woman has given me, "You are seeking a miracle of love, the most important of all gifts that He blesses us with. Do you think He is going to say “No”? If it is His utmost wish for us to love and be loved, it is safe to say that asking His intervention in matters involving love are a sure yes!" Lord, I do love this man. As Joseph loved Mary... as Adam loved Eve... as my mom love my dad... my aunts loving my uncles... a sure-fire love that no one can interpret into words except You, My God. Right now, again, my faith feels as if it's being tested... tested in a big way, since this is a deep desire in my heart. My faith, knowing that restoration is never impossible from You, is being slightly swayed and questioned by the thoughts of my mind. But "A man is as he thinketh". And negative thoughts and having me to give up is what the devil wants. I will not give up on this man, because he truly deserves love, both Your love and mine, for I am a lover and a big dreamer for good, not evil. I am more than of a conqueror and conquer I shall do, for restored love shall be the outcome, because through God anything is possible. So God, please show him Your love. Show him there is nothing to be of detachment or fear. Let your angels fight the demons that might reside in him to give them these "bad emotions" and give him positive emotions. This is not the man and friend I once knew and he seems more different than ever before. The man I knew had a big heart, loving emotions, and a positive attitude. Now he seems lost and discouraged. My love and prayers go out to him, for this is still the man I claim to have as my husband. This desire of miracle love shall not die. And I STILL stand on restoration and Healing!
Second, I want to pray for my divine faith and spirit... You see Lord, love hath no boundaries... and no man shall put asunder what You have created. Lord you did put us together for a reason. And we had a sure-fire connection that never broke or doubted upon. My faith was swayed and it almost died, but You Lord reminded me to walk by Faith not by Sight. To believe in your heart and the outcome you feel that will happen. I believe in total restoration and healing in our relationship. Lord, you know how many days have went by and not one did I not stop loving him, nor You. I trust in the miracle of the impossible. Lord you bless me with faith. Please continue to bless me with faith... I really need it. For my exboyfriend, my significant other, my future husband by my faith, Love and Healing is what You put in us and have put in us, and Lord you can surely fix anything and do it again.
Finally, I want to pray that on Your promise, that I continue to delight in You, my Lord, for You are my only hope. As you can see, I cannot do anything in my power to do so because my power is weak unlike Your infinite power. Once delighted, as you promised, the desires will be rewarded unto my heart. My head slowly filling with all doubts and hopelessness will fade, not my heart's desires and love that I cannot express unto words. My faith is what grants miracles. And Lord, my miracle is restoration of our relationship, for my exboyfriend's salvation, and miracle healing in our hearts and relationship. In my heart THIS WILL WORK. The devil tries his hardest to use one or both of us to stand in the way of the true miracle: restored love. You never back down on a promise. Lord I come to you with tears in my face and a desire You, in Love, have put in my heart. You never lie and I know by my faith, You will restore us both in a BIG way and both of us will be blessed together in holy matrimony (because I still claim us to be together in marriage someday) and a great life together with my family and his family bonded together through our future marriage. Lord, some people say this isn't to be after this long. Some people say it just won't happen. Lord, i stand by Your promises and miracles, not by what other people say. Despite on how the conversation may seem to others, I know You can work miracles and the outcome of restoration still stands firmly in my heart. In the NAME of Jesus, whatever obstacles the devil puts in both of us, TAKE IT AWAY. Whatever bad thoughts come across me or my exboyfriend, remove them and fill us with love and understanding and fellowship. I may think I'm crazy for doing this, but God is a God of the impossible. He is a Miracle Worker and a Granter of Wholesome, Loving, and Cherishable desires. And this desire is of a restored love that no one may seem possible, not even me, but only through tainted faith is what not make a miracle happen. In Jesus Name, I forever claim this miracle in a BIG way! Amen.
Prayer request made golden: Tue Jun 15 16:21:34 +0000 2010